Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Book of Shadows... Chapter 7

My best friend Irish Goddess and I have been working out way through The Book of Shadows by Phyllis Curott. She has been blogging about each chapter, and now I am taking over for a few chapters.
In this chapter, she talks about different methods of divination: runes, tarot cards, the I Ching, etc. What I found most interesting in the chapter is how she describes learning about these, and realizing that the idea that life was predetermined is not true. Many people think these methods of divining the future and past are just that, insights into a predetermined future. But the words she uses to describe it are more perfect than any I can come up with.

"These oracles, these divining tools, are like a lighthouse to a ship at sea. They tell you where the shore is, where the rocks lie, offering guidance in a storm or on a dark and starless night. But, ultimately, the decision as to how to chart our course is your own. Your choices, your free will, your expectations, fears, longings, beliefs all affect the outcome of events."(pg 147-8)

It is interesting that this stood out to me, because Amanda and I were discussing tarot cards just last night. We did a reading a while back, each of us reading for the other, and we both felt so touched by it. Since then she has gotten herself a tarot deck. I've also started using a daily tarot card app on Facebook, with uncanny results. I have been touched more and more lately by the tarot, and hope to learn much more about my decks. Have any of you had any great experiences with tarot? Please share if you have!

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Comfort Drawer/Medicine Bag

Sarah Ban Breathnach writes in her book Simple Abundance about a Comfort Drawer. This is meant to be a special drawer that you outfit with all the beautiful things that soothe your soul and make you happy. A place you can escape to: nibble your favorite candy bar, light your favorite incense, draw a bath of the most sensual bubbles, etc. She recommends lining the drawer with beautiful shelf paper and tucking in sachets of your favorite scent as well. This is such an amazing idea. I have started a comfort drawer and hope to keep filling and sweetening it.

Goddess Leonie has an idea that is very similar to this. A medicine bag. This is a bag, real, or psychological, that you fill with the things that heal your aching heart. For me this is a list of things like: eat Nutella, hang out with my bestie (Irish Goddess), and a list of other tried and true methods of healing myself. There is a page included in the 2010 and 2011 versions of the Creating Your Goddess Year workbook and I filled mine out last year. Here is my page filled out for 2010.
There is one more resource that I would like to share with you, to tie this whole crazy blog post together. Allison, over at BrocanteHome wrote about the Comfort Drawer idea. Her take on it was that before the new year we should empty out our Comfort Drawers and take those beautiful things we save for ourselves, and indulge in them on a daily basis, not relegate them to something only for the hard rainy days. I say we should do that with our Medicine Bags as well. Dump them out on our beds, slather on that lavender lotion, eat that dark chocolate, brew that cup of special tea, call our best friends, watch movies that we normally feel guilty about, meditate, hold that beautiful moonstone crystal that almost glows, and more. These are the things that fill my Medicine Bag and Comfort Drawer, but yours might be very different. If watching Star Trek in your snuggie and eating cold chicken is how you find your bliss, then by all means do it! The point here is that beauty and comfort and indulgence don't have to be special occasion events. If you have always wanted a ruffled pillow to rest your feet on while you watch tv, then by all means woman get yourself one!

12 Days of Sick-mas

I had this amazing idea to do a 12 days of Christmas series of posts. And I made it to day 5. Then I got a nasty cold and a stomach flu, which I still can't completely shake. Soooooo I am basically abandoning the commitment I made to myself, so that I wont feel I failed to follow through. I am forgiving myself for this (see previous posts on forgiveness) as I would normally hold onto this and feel awful about it, and myself. But life is life, and the stomach bug is nasty. So we move on and let it go. This might be my body's way of purging itself of the past as well. (I just thought of that right now, and it actually strikes a chord for me!) So with my body purged, and my heart lightened by having forgiven myself for things I had been hoarding away....
the new year should be a beautiful one!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

On the Fifth Day of Christmas

On the Fifth Day of Christmas my true love gave to me:

Five hilarious E-cards, so I can giggle hysterically
A day off,
3 Lovely linkies to help me be me,
two lovely books that never fail to inspire,
and a beautiful golden mirror so I could truly see!

From the endlessly funny

Happy Holidays!!!

On The Fourth Day of Christmas

On the fourth day of Christmas my true love gave to me:

A day off. Which is why this post is a day late! :)
Sometimes we need a day off....

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

On the Third Day of Christmas

On the Third Day of Christmas my true love gave to me:

3 lovely linkies to help me be me,
two lovely books that never fail to inspire,
and a beautiful golden mirror so I can truly see.

These darling links are some of the plethora that I have found online. I am in love with things I can download and print and play with. One of these links is actually something I made to contribute to the global online society, and something I hold dear to my heart.

The Artists Survival Kit by Keri Smith

Pocket Goddess Gratitude Diary by Goddess Leonie ( I will be saying so much more about Goddess Leonie soon as she is one so amazing and I will be doing an extra special giveaway as well!!!)

Forgiveness Workbook by Domesticated Gypsy (My own creation)

For the first and second days of Christmas click here and here

Have a beautiful Holiday my lovelies!

Monday, December 13, 2010

On the Second Day of Christmas

On the Second Day of Christmas My true love gave to me:

Two darling books that never fail to inspire,

and a beautiful golden mirror so I can truly see.

Today I have two wonderful books to share with you, written by one of the sweetest women I have ever known! The author is the amazing Melissa Placzek Melissa Placzek

She hand wrote and illustrated these lovely books... and I have been in LOVE with them from the very first time I saw them. The style is so beautiful and inspiring! She has recipes for food, beauty treatments, decor, etc. I keep these books very close and slip into them with a mug of tea on misty mornings when I am feeling dreamy. She has a blog as well, where she continues to share sweet little luxuries and her personal adventures. Do stop on by there as well!

For the first day of Christmas, click here

Have a lovely day! XOXOXO

Sunday, December 12, 2010

On the First Day of Christmas

On the first day of Christmas, my true love gave to me:

A beautiful golden mirror, so I could truly see.

My Golden Mirror

This is taken from one of my all time favorite books, from one of my all time favorite authors. Simple Abundance by Sarah Ban Breathnach.

" Today, find a few minutes to get quiet and journey within. Close your eyes. Visualize a beautiful, large golden mirror surrounded by white shimmering light. This light is Love and it surrounds you, enfolds you, enwraps you, and protects you as you look into the mirror. See the reflection of an extraordinary woman. She is beautiful and radiant. She possesses a strong, healthy, vibrant aura. Her eyes are sparkling and she is smiling warmly at you. Do you know who this woman is? You feel as if you have known her all your life. And you have. She is your authentic self. Spend a few moments with her now. What is she doing? How is she doing it? Visit her as often as you life. She is waiting to help you find your way as you make the journey of self-discovery.
There are days when we all fear the harsh glare of the looking glass, but there is never a time when you should hesitate to encounter the woman in the golden mirror. She is the highest reflection of your soul, the embodiment of the perfect woman who resides within and she sends you Love to light your path."

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Mystery Giveaway over At Irish Goddess

My very dear friend Irish Goddess is having a sweet mystery giveaway over at her blog "Irish Goddess." She is celebrating a personal milestone, and wants to spread the love. The contents of the Goddess Mystery Box are just that... a mystery. Hee hee hee. I have to tell you though, I know some of what is going in (and I'm contributing a few sweet little Goddess goodies I've created) so who ever is lucky enough to win is going to be very very happy! Click on over to her blog and enter this giveaway!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Welcome December.... Month of Forgiving Myself

Hello December... how bright and white and shiny and covered in snow you are! I am open to the new possibilities that you offer! I have had a rough year, and I really need to feel that magical Christmas feeling this year to remind me.

So here are a few things that this month has to offer:

CSN Stores (online purveyors of everything from briefcases to bedroom furnishing sets) has offered to let me do a product review. They are who facilitated my blog giveaway in October with a gift certificate for $45. This time I get to pick out a product of my choosing, and review it. With over 200 websites, I am sure I can find something I will love! Look for an honest product review later this month.

Forgiveness: something that I find hard to come by when I look in the mirror. I started the 31 Days of Forgiveness project for that very reason. Click here to read my original post on it and to download the sweet little workbook I put together. I am hoping to post every day about this, but I will forgive myself if I am not perfect! :) See how easy that is!

I have a bunch of information that I have found online about forgiveness that I want to pass along to you. I know it isn't an easy thing to do, but it will be so worth it! Trust me! Click here for a great series of articles on Rituals for Forgiveness. Yes, it's from, and yes I think she is fabulous. Girl Powah and Oprah are practically synonyms of each other!


Thursday, November 25, 2010

Forgiveness. And a Gift For You All


Something that I spent most of my life believing had to come from outside of myself. Something that had to be given, or granted to me. But if that is true, why is it that you hear:

“You have to ____________ yourself before you can _____________ anyone else”?

Fill in the blank with anything: Love. Make Yourself Happy. Nurture. Feed. Please.

And there is great truth there. You have to be happy from within before you can find happiness without. We are given this message almost every day online. We are responsible for our own happiness. We must love ourselves before we can truly love another.

So why then are we not responsible for forgiving ourselves? We are capable of it. Certainly it is hard. We have each been through so much in our lives, most of it we probably blame on ourselves for one reason or another. But the best thing we can do is let it go. Forgive ourselves. Feel peace with our past and allow the things we have been holding onto to leave and make room for new beautiful experiences.

Paul Boese said, “Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.”

How beautiful those words are. The past is the past. It makes us who we are. But holding tightly to the blame we place on ourselves will not get us anywhere. By letting go, releasing it, we can create space to fill with new wonderful memories and feelings.

Here are a few examples to illustrate my point:

1) 1. When I was pregnant, I did research like crazy to plan a specific birth plan that I had in mind. I wanted to have vaginal birth, without being induced, and with little or no medical interference, (unless you count powerful pain killers which I was pretty sure I would agree to anyway). I ended up having a c-section because my baby was stuck and couldn’t descend all the way due to my pelvic bones not spreading enough. I would have been completely unprepared if it weren’t for the fact that my best friend had to have an emergency c-section with her first child and made sure that I was prepared for the remote possibility that it would happen. To this day I still struggle with a certain feeling of disappointment in myself. Like I failed somehow by not having the birth I had wanted. However, my son is healthy and beautiful. I am healthy. We both survived the delivery, and all is well with the world.

2) 2. I have a dear friend who has had several rough years in her life and her marriage. She made a terrible mistake and hurt her husband and their marriage very deeply. Time has passed. They have healed their marriage. Her husband has forgiven her, and I can safely tell you that their relationship is stronger and better than ever. Their family has grown, and it is a beautiful thing. But she still can’t seem to forgive herself for what she did. For a time there she was in a very deep depression because of it. I ache when I see how she hurts for the past. But just as I am the only one who can forgive myself for my different-than-desired child birth, she is the only one who can forgive herself for her mistake.

I invite you to take part with me in a Month of Forgiveness. I want to make a fresh start for 2011, and leave the pain and pressure in 2010. I am going to write down one thing each day for the month of December that I forgive myself for. Then on December 31st, I am going to burn my list, and let go of the past. I have created a fun little workbook for you to print out and write in, and I would like to share this with as many people as I possibly can. Let us all leave the past behind us, and light a fire of inspiration for a beautiful new year!

Click on this link Forgiveness Workbook to download your copy! Please share this with everyone you know! I feel very strongly that I'm not the only one who needs this message right now, and I want to really get it out there!

Note on the workbook*** It is designed to be printed back to back on the same page and folded in half.

Today I am Thankful...

...for all that I am, and all that I have been through. For I know, that if I had not experienced all the things I have, I would not be who I am. I think about this a lot. For example, when I found myself 25 years old, single, and pregnant, I was pressured by a whole community of people to put my baby up for adoption (because it was the 'right' thing to do). But because of all that I had been through, I knew that would never be an option for me, and now I have a wonderful 5 year old son that I love so much more every day.

All that I am, I have become because of everything I have experienced. There are hard days, hard things I've been through, things I still struggle with, and new struggles and troubles will always come along; but the beauty is, I will keep surviving, thriving, and growing, into who I am, and who I am meant to be.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Beautiful - Girl Powah

I haven't posted a Girl Powah video in a while... so I have one that I really love for you. Beautiful by Christina Aguilera. I think the message of the song is clear.... You are beautiful!

Beautiful by Christina Aguilera

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today


Thursday, November 4, 2010

Me Time

After a long, stressful week, that isn't over yet(!!!) I wanted to finally try out my new bathtub... a big sunken garden tub! I have always loved taking baths, but haven't lived where I had one in quite some time. I love being able to just sink into the water and relax!

We live in an older manufactured home, so it isn't great here, but in my relaxing mind, I saw only one place....

A beautiful tub in a beautiful room, is just about perfection as far as I'm concerned! I love bubble baths, they are so delicious and fun but my favorite bath accouterments are English Bath cubes. I've loved these since the first time I spend my allowance money on them at the drug store. They leave my skin feeling so silky soft and scented with delicious English aromas. Add in a few drops of divine Lavender Bath Oil from Yves Rocher and I'm in heaven!

I recently joined the Goddess Circle from and downloaded all of Leonie's amazing meditations. She is holding a 17 Days of Zing meditation party for the first 17 days of November, where we all due one of the 3 meditations (5 minutes, 10 minutes, or 20 minutes long) from her Holy Dinger Uber Deep Zennifying Meditation kit.

If you are not familiar with Leonie, and her website, I urge you to hop over there. She is such a sweet darling, and so full of love and inspiration that you can't help but love her. She has created some amazing e-courses, workbooks, and meditations that I LOVE. But I digress.... :)

While in the bath, I did the 10 minute meditation, and it was amazing! I am loving how much clarity and calm I have gotten from the three (out of 4) days that I have done it so far. I have been through some tough stuff just in the last week, and this has been the perfect time to start a practice of daily meditation. The focus it has given me has surpassed anything I expected!

Oops, I went off again! Back to relaxation! (How old do you have to be before you know if you have adult onset adhd?)

Then I soaked until my pruney skin smelled delicous and felt super soft...

Then I helped myself to a new snack the Chris and I discovered at Walmart. It is not healthy , so look away if you are dieting!
Triple Chocolate Filled Muffins! It is the generic Walmart brand, and cheap too! I heated it up for 15 seconds in the microwave and dove into my chocolate lava muffin and a glass of ice cold milk. Yum!

Now I am blogging.... naturally one of my "me time" activities. In a moment I am going to go lay my tired head down on my soft pillow, which I have scented with my favorite lavender pillow mist and pass out into a blissed out stupor!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Giveaway Winner!

And the winner... as determined by is GlendaM over at Myles Ahead! Congratulations sweetie!!! Pop me an email and I will send over your prize! A $45 E-gift-certificate to CSN stores! Thanks to everyone who entered, and hello to all my new followers! You are all so wonderful!
Lots of love!

Friday, October 29, 2010

Defying Gravity

Here is a song that is very close to my heart. It's from the broadway musical "Wicked" and it is one of my all time favorite sing-at-the-top-of-my-lungs-when-I-feel-down songs. Wicked is the story of how the Wicked Witch of the West came to be so "wicked!" I've never seen it, but it is in the top 5 of my Things to Do in This Life list.

Defying Gravity

(spoken) Elphaba - why couldn't you have stayed calm for
once, instead of flying off the handle!
(sung) I hope you're happy!
I hope you're happy now
I hope you're happy how you
Hurt your cause forever
I hope you think you're clever!

I hope you're happy
I hope you're happy, too
I hope you're proud how you
Would grovel in submission
To feed your own ambition

So though I can't imagine how
I hope you're happy right now

(spoken) Elphie, listen to me. Just say you're sorry:
(sung) You can still be with the Wizard
What you've worked and waited for
You can have all you ever wanted:

(spoken) I know:
(sung) But I don't want it -
No - I can't want it

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

Can't I make you understand?
You're having delusions of grandeur:

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down:
(spoken) Glinda - come with me. Think of what we could
do: together.

(sung) Unlimited
Together we're unlimited
Together we'll be the greatest team
There's ever been
Glinda -
Dreams, the way we planned 'em

If we work in tandem:

There's no fight we cannot win
Just you and I
Defying gravity
With you and I
Defying gravity

They'll never bring us down!
(spoken) Well? Are you coming?

I hope you're happy
Now that you're choosing this

(spoken) You too
(sung) I hope it brings you bliss

I really hope you get it
And you don't live to regret it
I hope you're happy in the end
I hope you're happy, my friend:

ELPHABA So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who'd ground me
Take a message back from me
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity
I'm flying high
Defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!

This is what Girl Powah is all about!