Monday, March 29, 2010

The Little Girl Inside

I am getting married. My fiance has been married twice before, and both times turned out to be a huge mistake. He had sworn to never get married again, and that was something we discussed at length. I understood his hesitation, and we decided that we would be ok without that piece of paper legalizing us. We made our commitment of love and devotion to each other. I figured at some point we would just do it, some years down the road possibly, and call it good. But whatever. Then he decided that he did want to marry me. Or rather, he wanted to BE married to me. Getting married is another story all together. He would rather not worry about all the fuss and muss. He doesn't want a big party, or a party at all. Something small, short, and without the pomp and circumstance. That's all very well.

But what do I do with the little girl inside me?
The one who dreamed of that day.
The one who grew up on Disney.
The one who was always kind of plain but still felt a little fabulous on the inside.
The one who was told when she started gaining weight in high school that no man would want to marry her with those hips, but still held onto the hope that maybe some day?
The one who kissed frog after frog?
Who almost got married to the prince of all that is evil, but barely escaped with her life, and her little baby?
The one who finally found someone who could look through the hips, and the baggage, and see someone who wanted to be with her and now doesn't want to have the fuss of a wedding?
Yeah her.
What do I tell her?

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Greenman Giveaway

Over at Ramblings of Newbie Pagan she is having an awesome giveaway for reaching 50 followers! (Something I have been seriously thinking about doing when I reach 100 followers...)
She is a sweet and inspiring, and I highly encourage following her blog! Please stop on by and grab yourself an entry... :)
And I promise I will be posting a regular entry sometime today following this one. Hugs and kisses!