But I want one.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Every day I wake up, and I tell myself, today will be different. Today I will accomplish something. Today I will make a difference, or make a change. Today I will look at myself in the mirror and see someone beautiful and confident. Today I will believe. Today I will be more me than I have ever been. But the truth of the matter is.....
I'm fucking scared.
I get scared that I don't know who I am, so how can I be more me than ever before? I don't know what I really want in life, so how can I accomplish that? I don't feel I have anything to give the world or any way to affect change, so how can I imagine that I could do that? I get scared that when I look in the mirror I will always see the girl who is awkward and needs to lose weight and figure out what the hell she is doing with her life.
Then there are the moments when I do have it figured out. Not for weeks, days, or even hours. Just moments. When I can sit back and think, "Wow, that was really brilliant!" And for that short time, I'm not scared anymore.
I have tried for a long time to live by the phrase 'fake it till you make it.' I want to be a strong confident beautiful woman, so if I act like I already am, then I will become who I want to be. This is not always true. Sometimes I just look bitchy and full of myself; or, over eager and trying to hard.
So I guess the trick is to find the balance between the times when I don't have anything figured out, and the times when I stop trying to figure it out, and just have it already within me.
Fake it till you make it doesn't seem so appropriate anymore, because I am making it. Making a big mess of it sometimes... but making it all the same!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
I was asked by TLC Book Tours to review After Lives of the Rich and Famous by Sylvia Browne. I was very excited for this opportunity, and I am thrilled with the book. I am still in the exploration stages of my spirituality. I am hesitant to state one set way that I believe things to be, as I am still learning and growing. However, if Heaven is, and is the Heaven that Sylvia describes... I'm so in! Sylvia speaks of the other side through her Spirit Guide Francine. Francine offers us glimpses into the afterlives of some of our most beloved, or notorious, celebrities that have passed on. While this is not a hard hitting spiritual tome, it is a sweet book with messages of hope for the future of the future.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Willow Silverhorse over at Confessions of a Country Witch is hosting a blog party for the second half of this month. I have been honored with the task of helping her organize it, and I will also be doing a giveaway on one of the days. We are going to have guest posts, giveaways, and other exciting happenings. We are looking for people who are willing to take part, as well as people to stop by and check it out as it starts.
Hope to see you all there!